Monday, August 31, 2009
Posted by Cam or Zilla at 8:15 AM
Thursday, August 27, 2009
So recently I got an email from A saying he was in the 'ville and would like to meet up for a coffee or something. I asked why and he said to catch up. At first I said yes, but then I changed my mind. And here's what I told him:
Here's the thing- I shouldn't have said yes I would meet up with you. I have no desire to catch up. I don't think we can be friends and right now I have no inclination to spend time with you. You forfeited your right to be involved in my life when you broke up with me and then posted shitty comments about me on your facebook page. I know you'll probably think I'm being unreasonable and that if I had ever really cared about you I would want to see you, etc. But this is who and how I am. I take things too seriously and my feelings get hurt by small stupid things. I'm bossy and controlling and I like things done my way or the highway and I try to compromise but quite frankly I'm not very good at that obviously. And when I've moved on from something or someone and I'm done, I'm really done. And I'm done with you and our relationship. You're a great person, just not for me and I hope that you'll meet someone one day who can make you happy.
This is a big step for me in that in the past I would have just avoided him completely and not ever really gotten any closure so to speak. I hope this closes it off for both of us.
Hi I'm a single girl living in a town I love. What can you show me today?
Friday, August 21, 2009
This article is great. I don't date women much. Partially cause alot of the lesbians in this town are kinda crazy and partially since they wouldn't touch with me a 10 foot pole since I also like men. I also don't meet alot of women that I'm attracted to that are also attracted to me. I do hate the assumption that if you're "bi" then somehow how you're not trustworthy in a relationship. I usually don't comment on my sexuality unless I'm asked directly (which is rare). I don't discriminate who I'm attracted to on the basis of sex. It's the mind that I'm after and the body is just an added bonus.
Posted by Cam or Zilla at 12:41 PM
Monday, August 10, 2009
This past weekend D invited some of us down to her parents lake house in Hot Springs, complete with pontoon boat and pool. It was so much fun. Quiet and relaxing. I camped in a little tent. WB and her man, S and her husband and kids, and W and baby W all came down. I got a great tan and some quality time with some of my favorite people. It was just what I needed. D's parents are great folks.
This weekend is the last home game of the season for NWARG and the last game (unless something aamzing comes up). Backwoods Betties are playing Green Country Rollergirls Thunder Dollz which should be interesting. M will be in town!!! I'm so excited! I miss that girl likes nobody's business. I know everyone else is excited to see her as well.
I've finally cut the cord completely with A. We were going to try to be friends but that's just not working for me. He's immature adn thoughtless and I can't believe I put up with things as long as I did. I'm glad he broke up with me so I didn't have to do it. And I think that he really just couldn't handle me. I need someone who can and he is not it.
Thursday night when D was taking me home after my night out drinking I ran into a friend of mine I haven't seen in aboput 4 years. We've known each other since junior high and have been involved a bit over the years but we've always been friends. We hung out last night and it was a lot of fun. There's soemthing about people who have known you for forever that's really nice. It cuts down on alot of explaining. We've had some good times me and him. Hopefully we'll stay back in regular touch.
So I'm over the hump of my twenties and now I'm closer to 30 than not. I'm really okay with that. I've never had any problem getting older and I feel like I only improve with age. If you've known me for long enough you know this is oh so true. I'm definitely more comfortable in my skin than I have ever been and more in tune with myself. I actaully like myself most of the time. I hope you do too.
Posted by Cam or Zilla at 11:19 AM